12 years… (by sarah)

So today I went to the Drs to see how the weight loss was going and stuff, I was convinced I had piled it on over Christmas I felt a lot stockier than before Christmas and to be honest I ate a lot reaching 1600 on alot of the days. This is about the 1400 stable and 1200 weight loss that I sorted with the nurse. 1600 is what I was eating before I went to the Drs, the amount I was eating and wondering why my weight was creeping up as everyone knows women have 2000 calories a day - unless you are me. I am short, had a boarderline thyroid for a decade or so and as it turns out have the lighter Asian skeleton like my dad (as well as the afro-carrabean spin from my mum) - add in the low mobility and I was screwed.

But between tablets and the discovery that I can't eat wheat and sticking to the low calorie counts to loose the excess weight, I have been loosing weight but I seriously ate some food over the holiday and then my birthday and so on.

So imagine my surprise and delight when I go and find I have lost weight, not much but I have lost weight still. The key being that due to pelvis being a lot more stable I have been out doing more stuff, doing running games with the cubs and even managing a 20 minute climb. And then they said my bloods were all good, all the tests were normal!!!

That is the first time that has been said to me, no not sures, or a bit high, or oooo that's not goods or it's boarderline or here's a tablet to help control this. So amazing!

And that is the first time in about 12 years possibly more.

One of the conversations I had with the Dr recently was that I don't know what energy level I am supposed to have - I've not had "me" energy since I was 18, I don't think 30+ normally have the same the energy as a teen so I have no idea if I am back to normal or not and to a certain extent I kind of don't care either as I am so much better than I have been for so long. I feel a little bit sad that that bit of life is kind of missing for me but at the same time I have the girls and though maybe I could have taken them to more things if I'd been weller I also know they love snuggly time watching films and colouring and stuff and I still took them to parks it was just some days I couldn't and when I did it was the outing for the day.

Interestingly I came home thinking about what I was doing last time it looked like I might get better with all the back treatments and exclusion diets at Chelsea and Westminster. That was like 12 years ago as was me trying to get a PhD place, the one I really really wanted was with the Open University, but it relied on Beagle2 landing and collecting data. It didn't happen, the beagle disappeared and today I watched the press-conference live of how they've found it sitting there on the surface of Mars. It made me smile, bitter sweet and poetically lovely.

Maybe when I have a cyborg body I can fly to Mars and say hi to it 🙂

Of course with hindsight I think it was for the best for me, I became so very sick and my friend who got the PhD funding did far more with the chance than I think I would have because fundamentally I am a shyer person and just not as good at Chemistry and form filling!

And anyway I am not sure I wouldn't be in a similar place to were I am now anyway.

2015 is kind of gearing up to be an amazing year.

Advent 19 – Bojustu (by sarah)

It is day 19 of Advent and I am so not really ready for Christmas but here is today's painting - it is supposed to be Father Christmas's sled in the northern lights

This week Jean learnt stuff that is apparently not widely known outside of Japan, seeing the rugby players on route I am so glad she is doing jujitsu or bojutsu as it was today. This involved large sticks that I couldn't help but compare to English quarter staves as they and archery were like the only things I was ever any good.

(photos phone)

Day18 – Feast and Diet :) (by sarah)

Nurse visit - she is really really pleased - even with flu and therefore no exercise plus the upping of calorie intake I have lost a bit more weight, also she doesn't tell people their January readings as well... Christmas. My mum also phoned to say the photos of me yesterday looked like my Auntie Sylvie (actually my great aunt), for some reason this made me think about my nans and I made me smile as some of the scarves on the skirt were their and my great nans head scarves (this used to be a thing in the UK). It also reminded me that I need to sort charm bracelets for the girls and that when I was pregnant with Jean we'd planned to make chemical symbol charms to over lay geek culture on top - I think should resurrect the project in 2015 🙂

Day 5 – Ice Skating (by sarah)

Here is day fives painting showing an ice skating scene 🙂

Jean has been making crowns with rubies on 😀 I was a fail mum and failed to finish yesterdays advent wrapping due to sore hands but hope to do it and a few extra days today whilst they are both out!

And Joy-Amy's vid on increasing awareness of Fibro - a chronic pain condition.

Day Four – Plague! (by sarah)

Here is painting number four - The Ice Cave, and as of last night I am no longer the only sick bunny. Alaric came home from work yesterday and had to cancel cubs - he never does this but unfortunately he has picked up a stomach bug or maybe this bug - what ever - he is ill. He was not in a state were he could take Jean and her friends to school this morning either which was DOOM and LOOM but fortunately their parents stepped in meaning they are doing both school runs today 🙁

But apart from that things are good and I am on the mend which is fortunate if he is on the down (really hope he isn't!).

Anyway for those of you who are interested today's advent for the girls is one of my Blanket Farm tales - Baa Baa Blue Sheep.